Flaming-Charisma

♣ my bloody life .

Monday, November 15, 2010 || 1:20 AM

Hi .

My dream came true people . Well sometimes , bestf's do help your dream become reality right ?

When i think about the past , it was never like that . Never . Until you really know the real me , we started fighting . Maybe we're not fated to be Closef's ? But I swear , Losing you as a friend , is a fucking big mistake . One of my bestf, replaced me w some other cooler friends . :/ This is what you called a bestf ?

So Im th bad guy now huh ?

These are just not the things that im tackling right now , parents . :/

What's wrong ? Why must you bother if i hang out w ITE people or Poly students ? I'm close to them . I know they're bad influenced , but i did't get influenced right ? They're just my friends , who i hang out w, when im bored at home . -.- I got some other Sec 1 friends along w me , why bother . You've been asking me to did well in studies and stuffs , and i tried right ? It's not pasal dorang per . -.- What does they gotta do w my studies . I just dont fucking understand parents .

Mom , you wanted me listen to all your bloody instructions . Im 13 for fucking sake . Iknow what's right and wrong , why must you bother ? Mom's leaving at 24 Nov , and im gonna stay w my dad . I dont know whn she's coming back . Now how th hell can i cook for dad and stuff ? he's sick , and you planned to go on a fucking hol's trip . What if anything happen to him ? Band practices is freaking me out . It's like almost everyday , How can i take care my dad at home ?
And im dealing w cash now . I got no job , no money . How can i buy food and stuffs when mom's away . My friends and I die die must get lobang , and if i were to work , who's gonna take care dad ? Who's gonna look after him and remind him to take his medicine ?

My family problems is getting worse . Mom blaming me . Brother blaming me . Dad too . And some other fucking stuffs which i gotta keep it to myself . I gotta keep reminding myself to just work hard and never say never . but w all this problems , how th hell can i handle it myself . These are just not th problems . How about my next year streaming ? My results ? Results sucks . I got no confidence in any subs except for Geog , Art and Lit . Im getting bad in Maths , and my English is starting to fail so is my malay . My hist sucks like hell . My Science is th worse . I just need a bloody tutor to teach me now . but i just can't find one , and if i do , where can i get th money ?
AND How about dad ? Dad meant ALOT TO ME .

Where are my friends when I need them ? ):